This humidity didn't come as a surprise, I knew we were expecting some heavy rains and in my area that usually means humidity, however I was not expecting 100% humidity. I don't live on the east coast, where did this come from! So I wasn't prepared. If I had known I would have had my wheelchair close, but instead it was clear across the house from me. So I had to stay in bed until my daughters came home from school and could bring me my wheelchair. I do have neighbors I could have called for help if I needed anything badly enough, but today I was ok to wait.
My brain doesn't click as well as it should when my pain is high. My thoughts are scattered and I jump from one subject to another. It's frustrating for me, as I'm sure it is for those I try to communicate with.
I don't like crying, I'm not saying there is a weakness to crying I just don't like it. It used to take a lot for me to cry, but good books or a good movie will get me every time. Well sometimes the pain gets to me and I just need a "moment" as I call them to cry it out so I can get the emotion out and move on to whatever needs to be done. I have a crying place, I cry in the shower in the hopes that the sound of the water will soften the sound. I do this in an attempt to not alarm my family, well today my daughter caught me. It was hard I don't like them to hear or see me like that. My husband always wants me to let them see, but something in me still makes me want to be the strong Mom or something.
Today was tougher than most, I am hoping this crazy weather moves on soon. Until then I'll make sure my chair is close and catch up on some netflix. What in the world would I do without Netflix and a good book.
I hope everyone else is enjoying the winter during the calendar spring. Thanks for stopping by.
